Rob Jacques Wins the 2011 Gival Press Oscar Wilde Award
(photo by Ralph S. Spillinger)
Winner of the 2011 Gival Press Oscar Wilde Award
Wonders of the Invisible World
Ah! Destructive Ignorance, what shall be done to chase thee out of the world!—Cotton Mather
Gay and blind, he couldn’t see his sexual partners and so “handsomeness” took on other meanings, or rather became another esoteric, academic word akin to “pulchritude,” “beautiful,” and “buff.”
“Gay” itself was problematic enough, flesh not knowing any orientation besides the vertical and horizontal, supine or prone, sex in that sense not much different from masturbating alone, although he learned to cope,
for his ears still heard soprano, alto, tenor, baritone. His nose smelled deodorant and soap, spiced cologne, while his tongue tasted salt in sweat, metallic semen, and the least bit of blood whose origins were unknown.
His hands felt muscle and fat, hairless and hirsute, felt skin again and again uncovered against his own without ever knowing its age or color, rolled nipples never knowing whether they were for work or play.
He liked the warmth, the firm pressing of torsos, the interlocking nakedness of slender legs and arms, and never having seen man nor woman, he accepted every bare body with its unique, secret charms.
Men and women spoke of him with kind emotion, his willing nudity, unabashed and nonjudgmental, his potency cheerily thrilling, and they considered a pleasing notion that, in every sense, love is blind.
Copyright © 2011 by Rob Jacques.
Rob Jacques grew up in northern New England. He served in the U.S. Navy during the Vietnam Era and worked for 28 years as a technical writer for the federal government. He has taught technical writing at the college level, and his poetry has appeared in various literary journals, including Atlanta Review and Prairie Schooner. Jacques currently resides on Bainbridge Island in Washington State’s Puget Sound.
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